Decisions In Myanmar we decided that we will not immediately start ‘properly’ trying to conceive. I do want to keep things fun. I feel the moment I ovulate every month, so maybe I can just seduce Denny without him knowing about the ovulation. In March we had no luck, but I didn’t expect to be …
Secret Denny doesn’t want me to tell everyone we’re trying for a baby. Actually, he doesn’t want me to tell anyone, but that is im-poss-ible! What will I tell my friends who all knew we’d talk about it while on holiday? But then I suddenly realise it would be fun to surprise them with the …
The first time The next day I finally start to feel better. Finally time to enjoy the white beaches, palm trees, azure blue sea, cocktails, my wonderful man and the thought that we’re going to be a family. I couldn’t be happier! And at the end of the holiday we finally go to bed together …
In spite of everything that’s been said, I still can’t believe it. I want to ask every day, “Are you sure?” but I think it would drive him mad, haha! Luckily we’re in Myanmar, where there is a lot of distraction, so I also have less time to think about it. Today we coincidentally bumped …
I can’t believe it. There are tears burning in my eyes. I’ve waited for so long to hear that answer. That one answer. By now I didn’t even care what the answer was, as long as I got an answer and now at the most idiotic moment ever he says it. I.Really. Want. To. Have. …
It is incredibly hot and I can feel the sweat dripping down my back, my feet feel trapped in my shoes, there’s loads of dust flying thanks to the passing tuktuks on the dirt road, there are tourists walking past and I just keep looking into those eyes. Those puppy dog eyes. And suddenly he …
The talk The entire time we’re in the airplane I have to bite my tongue, but by some miracle, when we land in Bangkok I just stop thinking about it. Wonderful holiday! We’ll stay here for one night, and then fly to Myanmar. I’m so excited! The first days in Myanmar also go well. We …
Then it’s January 2013. We are preparing for our 3 week backpacking trip to Myanmar. It will be Denny’s first time backpacking. We’re really looking forward to it and in my head I’ve decided that he’ll finally tell me whether or not he wants more children while we’re there. I can absolutely understand the reasons …
We now jump 2 years forward in time. By now we’re a couple, we live together and we’re happy. After 6 months I was already thinking ‘I want to have children with this man.’ That’s not what he’s thinking and it’s becoming a repetitive issue which sometimes ends in a fight and sometimes in tears, …
The ‘but…’ Have you ever felt like you were no longer in a situation, but kind of floating above it? Like you’re watching from a distance? I can see myself standing behind the bar, with this lovely man who is drinking mint tea for me, and whom I just very honestly told about my desire …