The definitive result Two days before we go on holiday, the doctor calls me again. I’m doing a newborn shoot at someone’s home, and I’ve told them I’m expecting a call. When the phone call comes, I walk into the passage. Strange. Here I am. The newborn baby is warm and safe on the beanbag …
The phone call No, don’t let it be the doctor. No, no no! I drive into a parking lot just before the Antwerp exit. Maybe it’s better to not be driving. It’s the doctor. 🙁 “I have bad news. The sperm is not good enough.” I try to stop myself crying. I fail. He can’t …
Sweetie! | Birth photography Zeeland Jessica emailed me early in her pregnancy. Even before she was pregnant she knew she wanted photos of the birth, so when she was pregnant, she took action quickly. 🙂 This was Jessica’s second child, and her husband Wim’s first. Unfortunately she was admitted to the hospital with Hyperemesis Gravidarum …
The insemination Denny left early this morning, because his sperm had to be in the pot by 8:00. It’s amazing how quickly you get used to such ‘strange’ conversations. I’m so nervous! He phones at 8:15. He did it, but it was a strange experience. I ask what the ‘wank room’ looked like here, but …
The first injection We’ve been back once for another ultrasound, and my follicle was growing right on schedule. Well done. I’m proud of my follicle. 🙂 We’ve been given the hormone injection which I have to inject at 22:00 on Saturday, and 40 hours later ovulation should take place, and just before that the insemination …
IUI after all At this moment all I can think is: I want to try it anyway. The IUI. I ask Denny what he thinks, and his thought is also ‘why not?’ So two minutes later I’m lying on my back, staring at my empty uterus, but also at a follicle in my ovary. It’s …
The meeting with the doctor in Bergen op Zoom I am so incredibly nervous when we go there. I just hope that we can start right away with IUI, this month. When we go into the meeting I start babbling immediately, telling the whole story so far. Luckily it’s a very kind doctor who lets …
The File The file has arrived, one week before we have the appointment! Yippee! I open it and read everything, including the results of the semen analysis. I can’t believe what I see there: “motility: 2%”. (in Dutch: “beweegelijkheid 2%”) 2%!?!?!? That’s nothing!! You normally have a 20% chance of getting pregnant every month, but …
Plan B The word ‘defeated’ also applies to Denny when I get home and see him. What a horrific day! In less than a full conversation it’s decided: we’re not going back to this hospital. We have no trust in them, and the more we talk about it, the more I think: how can this …
Even Angrier She confirms what I’m thinking: “I think you’ve already ovulated.” Yes – I told you so! And now? “Oh well, next time we use the ovulation tests again, but then the ones from the hospital.” She can’t be serious? I ask her: “You think the ovulation tests here will give a different result?” …