IUI after all At this moment all I can think is: I want to try it anyway. The IUI. I ask Denny what he thinks, and his thought is also ‘why not?’ So two minutes later I’m lying on my back, staring at my empty uterus, but also at a follicle in my ovary. It’s …
The meeting with the doctor in Bergen op Zoom I am so incredibly nervous when we go there. I just hope that we can start right away with IUI, this month. When we go into the meeting I start babbling immediately, telling the whole story so far. Luckily it’s a very kind doctor who lets …
The File The file has arrived, one week before we have the appointment! Yippee! I open it and read everything, including the results of the semen analysis. I can’t believe what I see there: “motility: 2%”. (in Dutch: “beweegelijkheid 2%”) 2%!?!?!? That’s nothing!! You normally have a 20% chance of getting pregnant every month, but …
Plan B The word ‘defeated’ also applies to Denny when I get home and see him. What a horrific day! In less than a full conversation it’s decided: we’re not going back to this hospital. We have no trust in them, and the more we talk about it, the more I think: how can this …
Even Angrier She confirms what I’m thinking: “I think you’ve already ovulated.” Yes – I told you so! And now? “Oh well, next time we use the ovulation tests again, but then the ones from the hospital.” She can’t be serious? I ask her: “You think the ovulation tests here will give a different result?” …
Angry It’s a good thing I’m not sitting here alone right now, because my thoughts would have eaten away at me. The distraction is just what I need. We sit in the waiting room, and chat the hours away. At 14:00 a doctor – the one I spoke to on the phone – comes in …
Still some hope? I am so disappointed. I’ve looked forward to this moment for so long, and now, before we’ve really even started, it’s all over. Another month wasted. I repeat my question to the still uncomfortable woman on the other end of the phone: “What now?” “Well, I see you have to come from …
Stress After I’ve done the ovulation test I crawl back into bed. I wish Denny good luck, and ask him to call me when he leaves the hospital to head to his work in Den Bosch. Before my alarm goes off, my phone rings. It’s Denny. I look at the clock, it’s 8:15. He sounds …
IUI In the last month we did our best, once again. Nothing ventured, nothing gained, right? We welcomed the new year – 2014 – with the idea that we’ll have a baby this year. I do hope so! At any rate, I have my period again, so I call the IUI line again and hope …
Holiday When I get my period I am a little tense, but also enthusiastic, because finally something is going to happen. I’m not labouring under a delusion of immediate pregnancy, but the fact that we can try this six times is a calming thought. I nervously phone the number on the piece of paper. “The …